October News

So it's October now. The leaves are falling...and I see all sorts of Halloween decorations gracing store fronts, and signs. I love fall. Man I love this city...I was speaking with Katy and Lauren today, just saying how exciting this amazing place is. Every day I find something new, and am always enamored by this crazy city.

I have to face a choice come this summer. I'm really torn between New York City & Los Angeles. I absolutely love California....I have some great friends there too, but my questions about living there are:

1) Will it be good for the beginning of my career? We all know that mostly films are made out there, and I feel like if you want to get involved in production, that starting in Television Production is probably better...and if I'm not mistaken New York City has more TV shows? Or maybe it's split?

2) Will it be good for me personally? I loved California this summer...I really did, but I feel like LA really makes you shallow and I felt like I was changing..and I'm not sure if I was changing for the better...was too soon to tell how I'd be if I stayed there for longer than a few months.

3) Will it be best to live that far away from family? I have such a large family and being away from them definitely hurts, and while I don't neccessarily want to live in Massachusetts, I question whether or not living 3,000 miles away is best, as far as staying close with them, and if anything else occurs (good or bad), not being easily accessible.

I certainly wonder all these things, and have to decide on such factors soon.



The positives about LA

1) The weather is amazing. It actually makes me happier to be in such weather....I appreciate the beauty of that state..I really do. No harsh cold miserable winters.

2) I feel like ultimately it may be where I want to be as far as career wise... as I get older, I want to move on up, and do bigger things, and I feel as if California has all that.

3) I feel like I can breathe here... take a deep breath and go slowly if I want. I don't feel like I get too stressed there. I'm calmer for sure.

Ok, now on to NYC



The negatives:

1) I've already been here for what will be 3 years by the time I've graduated. And we all know I'm all about new experiences. I mean, I could always come back right? I've seen much of what this city has to offer, and I absolutely love it! But do I want to limit myself yet?

2) The weather...I can't stand it. I feel like half the time I'm miserable because of it. People say ... "but you're from Boston! You're used to this weather!" Doesn't mean I like it or want to be in it for the rest of my damn life!

3) It's too fast...you can't breathe half the time. Everyone is on fast forward, and going a million miles a minute. No time to just relax and enjoy life. I feel like life goes by far too quickly here.

Positives...

1) This city is amazing. I'd have to say it's certainly one of the top 3 cities in this entire WORLD. So much culture, experiences and it changes constantly. Crazy things happen here, and it's so fun to be a part of it.

2) It's pretty close to home. I can go home easily, and keep in touch with my family and friends. We're only 4-5 hours away, so it's definitely doable!

3) I have alot of friends here, and I'm really comfortable with this city. I know my way around, and I know that I would probably do fine here?

Ugh. I'm so torn. I'm really missing California and my amazing experiences out there!! I miss it soooo much. I'm sure though, that if I were in California right now, I'd miss it here. Oh man, I could have a job where I could split my time between the two, but I guess that's for the super successful! I can only hope to be that someday.

Anyways -- on another note.

I do plan on traveling and helping out in Ghana Africa after graduation for a month, so that's something that I am definitely doing before I enter into the real world. More on that later..must go to sleep again...... goodnight!