Serious Post

I'm watching this film from 1995. It's called "Before Sunrise" - it's with Ethan Hawke and some adorable french actress.

Someone told me to watch this film stating that while it's very simple, it presents an abundance of great subjects and points... out of mere conversation between the two people. They remind me of me and the discussions I absolutely love having with people I have a great connection with. In fact, it reminds me of this one day where I met this guy named Nikolas from Germany. It was the afternoon before he had to leave back for his country. We were both on our own and spent time together --- we had amazing conversation about our experiences and about random subjects. We even shared a kiss and absolute romance - just for a short time. He spoke of Germany and how it is like and the difference between the type of people in both this country and here in the United States. I've also had hours of talk with this wonderful person I recently met from the UK; same deal. Although I haven't spoken to him again, I've kept in touch with Nikolas every now and then via email -- I feel as if we meet these people even for just one night or one day for a reason; a good one at that.

You may never have such an insightful conversation with any one else in your entire life. With each debate and with each agreement - we learn something valuable, whether we are reaffirmed of our previous notions on a subject or perhaps proved wrong - we learn. These two characters in this movie would not have otherwise had such amazing interaction during 14 hours as they would have in their hometowns while meeting someone at a bar or a nightclub. They feel the need to just explore the city and explore each other as much as they can since the time is so limited. They know it is probably the last and only night they will ever spend together, so why not make the best of it and explore anything and everything possible?

I relate to these two characters more than 80% of people ever depicted within a film.

My professor recently spoke on how films and plays such as a few written by Shakespeare, how they do not always have the formulaic ending that most generally have --- the "happily ever after" ending. This does not make these stories depressing necessarily, but more so realistic and leaving each character with growth. For example, in the film "Shakespeare In Love", Shakespeare meets a woman by the name of Viola - they spend an immense amount of time together and fall in love and in the end, are unable to be with one another, but move on with their lives - with more inspiration, and more knowledge than they had ever previously had known. Shakespeare ends up gaining new ideas for his play writing, and new energy that allows him to write works that relate to him and his unbelievable past experiences - thus resulting in timeless plays that allow him to be as memorable as he is. (I mean, we don't know his own personal stories necessarily, but the film is a theory) She is able to know what love is and never settle for anything less in the future.

I too, have met someone like that. It is sad but amazing at the same time.

This movie takes place in Europe - they meet on a train and explore Vienna in just one night...before Sunrise (hence the title). I feel like Europe is a place where I must go. I'm such a sappy dreamer...but realistic at the same time. I need Europe - I know it will add to everything I feel and know and don't know. It has an abundance of eclectic music, culture, dance and anything that I would just absorb so willingly. Money is the only thing that is holding me back from exploring such an amazing country -- I will do it though. I will.

Katy and I were speaking -- she went to this forum today, I can't really explain it, I'm sure it'll add to my cheesiness within this post, but basically it's something I want to do. Everyone who attends it makes a goal at the beginning, whether it is - minuscule or major, and by the end of all the sessions, they will have achieved such thing. Why? Because it allows you to put emphasis and energy on a part of your life where you wouldn't otherwise think or be able to put attention on. With the help of others and their stories and the motivation that comes along with such helping resource -- people are able to work miracles in their own lives. It is exactly what I need in my life . . . I believe I have the passion and drive to accomplish an insurmountable amount of things (as well as many people in this world) I just am unsure as to how to do it...where to begin....when......you know, the whole sha-bang.

....3 weeks away from being 22. I'm still young. I'll figure it out.

A girl can only dream.

Good News Galore

I'm watching one of my favorite shows right now - Grey's Anatomy. That makes me happy.


One of the main producers at News & Docs at MTV asked my boss if I was in the market for a job. Apparently she is overly impressed at the work I have been putting in as a mere intern, said she doesn't see too many interns work this hard. That makes me happy. Real happy!



For one of my TV/Film classes, we have to interview someone in the television business and someone in the Film Business. For the Film part - I scored an interview with one of the masterminds behind the SAW franchise. And for my TV part - I scored an interview with the executive producer of The View. That makes me so happy.



I bought a new Harlan Coben book today. My goal is to read every single one of his novels. I think I am on my 5th. That makes me happy.


I also bought a book to help me pass the CLEP exam I must take in order to graduate on time. So far so good - I am really focusing in on it. That makes me happy.

Rutgers is losing against Louisville - that doesn't make me happy.


There you have it. My day and my news.

Joy!

Prioritizing vs Partying

Must stop partying. Yes. Must.

My good friends Katy and Lauren had a few visitors fly in this weekend from Ohio. Quite fun visitors to say the least. Both Friday and Saturday nights were pretty nuts..involving limo rides, seemingly endless drinks, the Hustler Club (where I apparently drunkenly tried to talk a new stripper out of her lifestyle telling her to follow her dreams), all you can eat Sushi and more. Oh my - I'm pooped. Now I must prioritize and get my act together. I have more work than I can possibly handle within the next 4 weeks and I really have to get on it. I think I have a case of the "Procrastinations". It's like this disgusting rash....uh. yeah.

So anyhow --- my costume was an ABSOLUTE hit. It was hilarious. I was the only girl in the place who wasn't dressed like a 2 bit whore. I loved it! People would just look over and here I was with these massive bouncy titties. Oh man. I was a little intoxicated upon arrival at the club, so I had no shame. I would simply shake them in people's faces...hot girls primarily. Then I would just bump into people and yell "OH SORRY! MY BAD! SORRY". My comedian side absolutely came out that night and I believe about 85 people took pictures with me. I even won a few contests.


Too funny.

So yeah, lately I've been getting mucho attention. You know those times that all of these people come out of the wood work and are suddenly interested? Hmm could be the whopping change in breast size. Hmm nah. Usually it happens to me whilst I suddenly start dating somebody exclusively, but this time I'm not. Yes -- I said "Peace out" to that guy I was interested in. His lack of respect for someone he supposedly likes is utterly ridiculous. He doesn't even realize it at all either; while everyone else does. So I say "NEXT!" I'm not sure what he's used to....perhaps girls kissing his ass? Or not expecting any respect in return or to be half ignored? I don't play that game.

Right now I am watching Monty Python and The Holy Grail for this comedy movie class I'm taking. I've seen it before. I'm not much of a fan.

Well I'm off to go work on some papers - since I owe like 8 of them in the next 4 weeks.

Shake that money maker.